am i ready for it?

lagi pengen nulis niyhh... [buadhh yang lagi nungguin gue,,, sabarrrrrr iaaaghhhhhh] xp


just couple days ago,, ada [ex]ade kelas yang nanya sama gue...
like diz one..'mba, kalo sekarang ada cowo yang ngelamar mba, padahal mba udah punya pacar, mba mau ga?'
[jadi heraannn.. kok belakangan,,, banyakbanget obrolan soal married yaaaaa???? jangann jangaaannnnn...] halagghhh...
_yang nanya itu masih sma lho... denger2 siyh dia udah mau tunangan...halaghh... berasa balik ke jaman sma, yang masih sering KTT gagh jelas.. xp_

hmmm...

need some times, 2 answer that question,,, remembering that bocah yang nanya ini, emang rada2 rese kalo nanya2 soal kayak gini.
apa yaaa...hmmm.... gue siyh gagh muna ya tergantung orang yang ngelamarnya dan tergantung cowo gue juga gimana. tergantung sikon lah...

kalo kata salah satu sahabat deket gue siyh,, 'married isn't about with who n when u get married,,, but it's all about d commitment u made' hmm.. ada benernya... ada setujunya,, tapi ada gagh setujunya...


iya siyh married means commitment... and i thought i'm not really ready for such a big commitment like that one.
all i could think today is about how i could pass my degree,,got a scholarship,,working,,collect money [that's the passion of our study in indonesia rite'?],,_at least 'till i could bought a nice house or car for momz'_ then maybe,,, i would thinking about married...

it's difficult to find someone that qualified, isn't it?

qualified...

hmm...

i thought in my objection... qualified man means...
*responsible
*caring
*loving
*tender
*patient [mostly with my selfishly]
*hmm.. yang bisa ketawa dan ngobrol lepas sama gue tanpa takut jaim
*yang bisa bikin gue ngerasa cantik
*bikin gue ngerasa jadi number 1 n spesial n kangen sama dia
*rapi...a good management...bersih...
*gagh sok jagoan dan sok pamer di depan gue
*bisa nyambung kalo ngobrol sama famz dan temen2 gue..
*yang bisa nanggung hobi belanja gue...[hehehhe... xp]




hmmm well... kayaknya orang di sebelah gue udah mulai bosan... let's we continue dis next time iafggghhh..











in conclusion.. : i thought i'm not ready for it..

Where'd you go?

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home

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tau kan kalo borobudur sekarang udah bukan lagi termasuk dalam 7 keajaiban dunia???

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trus ikutin step2nya aja.. gagh susah kok...cuma butuh waktu kurang dari 10menit...


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yang menempati posisi 77 besaar (masing2 di angka 12, 20 dan 21)... ni bagus lhooo...coz.. ada ratusan tempat yang jadi nominasinya dari seluruh dunia..

so... ayoooo...
sukseskan visit Indonesia 2008 dan vote for 7 new womders of the world...

cowo2nya phie

p emang udah sering banget gonta ganti cowo.
p mulai nge-date (serius dan gagh serius/jadian n gagh jadian) dari sD... hmmm... couldnt mention in one by one...hahaha...

tapi... tiap kali p bneran jadian sama cowo,,, p gagh main2. in case. p pasti bisa 100% penuh merhatiin cowo p. apalagi kalo klausulanya p duluan yang sayang.

aturan p sisyh simpel aja... jalanin aja pa yang ada,, gagh suka neko-neko kalo gagh pengen di neko-neko'n juga.

kalo jadian sama cowo,,, p bisa jadi super perhatian, super posesiv, super manja,,, dan super sacrifice.
hmmm...gagh rugi kok kalo jadian sama p.

p cndrung untuk nomersatuin needed cowo p,,, jadi p gagh suka banget, kalo tiba-tiba cowo p bikin 'ulah' sama p.
jangan harap p bisa maafin kalo dia bikin kesalahan fatal yang bikin kepercyaan p ke dia hilang.


klo p punya pacar,, p pasti percaya sama pacar p,, kecuali dia emang udah ngilangin rasa percaya p.
buat p,,, yang paling penting dari satuhubungan itu,,, kepercayaan, kesabaran,komitmen dan penghargaan (saling menghargai maksudnya).

makanya,,, sekarang p filterrrr banget cowo2 yang bisa p jadiin pacar...alhamdulillah,,, udah dapet...hehhee...
dari yang p liadh selama ini siyh dia bisa pegang 4 hal yang p sebutin tadi.
p sayang sama dia. tapi...yaa... nantinya waktu juga kan yang nunjukin aslinya dia kayak apa. yang p kenal sekarang beneran dia atau gak gitu maksudnya.

persetujuan dari ortu [mamah-rad] juga penting banget. soalnya di keluarga p ada prinsip kayak gini,,,'klo keluarga besar, suka sama dia (calonnya-red)insya allah hubungannya lancar,, tapi kalo keluarga besar gagh suka,,, ya.... siap2 aja saputangan'...heheh..
eh,, jangan salah lo.. selama ini,,, metode itu beneran berjalan. sudah teruji secara empiris dari 3 generasi... hahahaha...

untuk yang satu itu,,, emang p blum kenalin siyh,,, ntar deyh kalo ada momennya,,,baru ke mamah, papah, n mbak aja,,, sepupu2 p blum...[padahal mereka juru kuncinya hahahha...]

hhhffuhhh..
kuq jadi pengennnya ketemu terus ya tiap hari???
bosen siyhhh,,, tapintar kalo gagh ketemu juga kok rasanya ada yangrada beda gitu ya...

hahahha...


hmmm... jadi gagh pengen balik ke rumah,,, tapi pengen balik juga,, biar bisa kangen...

tau gagh,,, kadang p ngerasa Tuhan emang beneran ngijinin p jalan sama dia,,, abis,, udah banyak aja tanda2nya...hmmm.. p bersyukur banget kalo emang itu beneran.

_p saiang dia...mudah2n dia juga sayang p terus_

emang gue gag boleh bebas ya?

why i can't have a freedom???

just want to have my privillage like the other else...seperti orang lainn... tapi kenapa gagh bolehhhh?? kenapa????
orang lain bsa nunjukkin sayang mereka ke pacarnya,, kenapa gue gak bolehhh????
kenapa gue masih harus mikirin perasaann diaaa??? padahal dulu dia mikirin perasan gue aja gagh>>>>>>!!!

kenapa siyhhh???


'gue bukan pacar lo lagi,, kenapa gue masih harus tetap mikirin perasaan llo??? kenapa gue masih harus tetap jaimmm???? kenapa gue gagh boleh sayangsama orang lain??? bilang kenapa????????'

don't u c?

kenapa harus ngerasa kehilangan kalo kmu bahkan gagh pernah sadar aq selalu ada buat kamu dulu...??
pernah inget waktu kamu gagh ada ngabrin aku seminggu penuh, dengan alasan kamu gagh ada pulsa,, dan sibuk ikut kegiatan segala macma??pernah inget qmu sering gagh angkat telp aku,,, dengan alasan kmu ikut karate..?? padahal aku tau itu bohongg??


pernah oinget kalo aku pernah begitu perhatian sama kmu n menomersatukan kmu,, tapi kamu malah nmgecewain aku,,,

aku pernah.. pernah begitu syang... aku pikir aku gag akan berhenti untuk sayang sama kamu.. n aku pikir aku akan cukup sabar ngehandle itu semua...
disaat orang lain nentang keinginanku untuk bertahan sama kmu,,,aq begitu keukeuh untukbertahan,,, dan mencoba untuk pretend that i'm just fine...


but trully dey knw.'dey knew.. that i'm not.. they knew it better than me... they knew that i shouldn't do what i've done...

i start realized it... dont u see...
however far we go... we couldnt go too far...we've just stuck there..
u still couldnt see that i really love u.. 'till u knew that i've found somebody... uthought u were my everything,,,yeah it was,,, it ws before,,but not know...

kenapa kamu harus ngerasa kehilangan kalo kamu bahkan gagh pernah sadar aku terlalu sayang kmu dulu...???

it's not fair!! not REALLY FAIR!!!

Not FOR ME!!!
why can't u let me be happy with my lifeee???


why can't u stop pursuing me???


aku gagh ppernah berhenti sayang qmu... tapi aku gagh akan bisa balik sama kmu kayak dulu lagi... terlalu sulit untuk ngulang lagi...aku gagh mau kecewa lagi,, aku gagh mau nangis lagi untuk hal2 kayak gitu,,,aq gagh mau dneger janji2 qm lagi,,,dan bhkan liadh kmu ngingkarin janji yang qmu bikin sendiri..

it's just tired...

kok bisa iaggghhh???

ko bisa gagh ada iagh tulisannya??
padahal tadi pagi udahnulis panjang lebar.. hhhffuuhhhh..payah aghhhh..

kan jadi gagh pengen cerita lagiii/...

padahal tadi pagi tuh verita soallll parantritis,,,hhhuuhhh payahhh...

futu2 parAngtriTis+malio

hoho.. diz is de pict... that we took on d parangtritis yesterday...hoho..




[naOn eTA Tehhh...aNeh bEud iAgh ekSpreSinYa...]


[diz iZ our nAme In d sanD.. mudaH2n beBeraPA tauN laGi adA namA yAng beRtamBah di baWah nMa kiTa.. hahahha...]


[nYanG dePan siYh canTik taPi yaNG blaKang kUq spOOkY gITu iaGh...]



[kaki nA ajaH biSa romantiS apaLaGi oRanGnya.. lebih RusAk laGi..hehehe...]


sebenRnYa ftu2nya banyak... tapi berhubung gagh lolos sensor karena takut bikin orang laen sirik.. yaaahhh jaddiiii itu ajaahhh iagh futunya...hahaha...


abis belanja dari malio nieyhhh.. cuapeee.. tapi seneng.. kapan lagi...[kayak udah tinggal sehari lagi aja di jogja,, padahal mash masih 3 taun lagi.. hahahha..]
senenggg.. punya kalung yang samaan sama diaagghhh.. hohoho...

pokonya p senengggg bangedh hari ini...


_p caiank soner_

Kangen hummy

Haduh..Libur udh jalan,tp masih stuck d kos..Hhaha..Gagh ad yang salah c..Ya..Sapa suruh gagh buru2 balik,padahal gagh ad kerjaan juga dkos..Halagh..
..
Hmm..Beda ya..Kl awal2 dlu aj,libur blum mulai malah udah ad drumah..Sekarang...Hehe..Betah euy wayahna djogja..
..
..
Sayang jogja ap sayang bobogoh iagh sebenerx??
xp


iagh..Dua2x siy..Kunaön dunk..
Hmm..
Mu nulis theme yg beda jè..
Hmm..
Couple days ago..Ka2x mantan gw nanya k gw.. "kmu siap nikah dg sgala konsekuensix sm dy?"..
That was an attacked question..
Bener2 unpredicted..
Ga ngrti darimana dtangx ide pertanyaan i2..
Sbnrx pgn blg.. "ga siap" tp mengingat bbrapa kondisi,kyax ga mungkn kalo dg spontan gw ngucapn kalimat itu,,
halagh..Hehe..Kn crtax skrg lg bljr untk ga tlalu mkrn org lain,jg ga tlalu selfish,,yah..Yg seimbang lah..N yg pasti ga buru2 ngmbl kptsn..
Jujur..Dulu mgkn gw bpkr,married is number1 tp..Skrg gw ga bpkr spti i2 lg,,msh bnyk yg gw pkrn slain married..And it's absolutely not my priority..
Dunt care whad dey say..Gw msh blum ykn kl gw bs married skrg ini aplg sm dia..
Coz i've already wondered that i need a man who could made me laugh,made me feel comfort n safe,,not d one who made d opposite of that things..
Hmm..
Dunno which way that i would take..

Kiss Me

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift up your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon it's hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

i miss you love

Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I'm not too sure
How I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say

But I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey
'Cause I'm coming in
With what I wanna say but
It's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

Remember two days
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

If You Were Mine lyrics

If You Were Mine lyrics

[Chorus:]

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you'd be the only thing that I would ever need

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Everything I dreamed about

Everything I talked about

One thing I can't live without

I wanna get closer to you

Can't stand being far away

Knowing that you don't feel the same way

Watching him bring tears to your eyes

[Chorus:]

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

All the words I sing about

All of that is I write about

Only thing I wanna hear about

So that I get closer to you

I know there's someone else, but he's only thinking of himself

Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely

[Chorus:]

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

Ohhh Yeaaa

Let me be the one you share your hopes and dreams with

You'll never be alone again, cuz' I will hold you endlessly

Please don't be afraid to let your broken heart guide you

Into these open arms that long to surround you, baby!!

[Chorus:] (X2)

If you were mine,

I'd be your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need

If you were mine,

I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want

let me be selfish for this cse

knp hrs skrg??/

knp hrs skrg dtg lg.,..
knp gsg biarin p bhgia..

p syang sony g... syng..
p udh khlngn g p yang p syng.. p khlngn g yng ngecewain p,...
knp ga biarin p nyoba jalan yng berbeda...
p cm ga mw khlngn lagi.. skrng,... atau nnti..
let me be selfish for this cse please.,..

p pgn brbh..
p pgn sony yg jd d lst bwt p..
pls...

let me...
allow me/...

dont disturb me no more...

i love u...

and this is 4 our good g..

i found somebody there..n u'll too...
dont u remember,,, u'r the 1 who alwys said.. that love isn't always having...

i wish u were here g..
i really wnt 2 hold u.. like u used to too when i'm done.. i really wnt to... hugh u.. and tell u that everything would be ok..

plese g... understnd me..i alwys heard n sais yes for everythng tht u said.,.. this time only... please let me be selfish.. i just want u to recover,,, i just want u to be happy too...i just want u to be back as my gie..my old gie..
i love g...
but i found somebody else love me.. n i love him too...
this is our chance to get out from our sick relation..
please...
allow me be selfish dis time...

020608_22.53

hoho...
akhirnya...
after a long searching... and a long fighting.. (upss.. lebai ajah...)...

halagh... kebanyakan majas niyh...

gagh penting ajah.. hehhehe...


iaaaghhh.. intinya sumthin' happened deyh on that time.. (title_red). guess yaa....?! ;p





hmm... minggu kemaren sempet ke kalikuning.. jalan2 siyh.yaa.. lumayan refreshing dkit.. lagian amasa dijogja ampir setaun belum ada main ke situ sama sekali. heheh..
futu2 gitu abis 80an file... ampe memory hape tinggal 70..(paragh)... pas dipajang di FS eehh.. ternyata mengundang pertanyaan dan sorotan dari berbagai pihak.. hehhee...
beberapa testimonial masuk soal pict2 itu.. (padahal sumpah,,, pictnya biasa aja kuq.. gagh ada yang diluar batas kewajaran...hmm.. emang dasar famous siyh.. namanya juga artis.. hehhehe... _cuape deyhhh..) dah ah.. gagh penting banget...
pribahasa 'anjing mengggonggong kafilah berlalu' masih berlaku bangetkuq di kamus gue.. hehe...

dunt care lah.. what they're said.. this is my life kan... jadi cuma gue yang berhak untuk ngendaliinnya.. ya gagh siyh?? hehhee/... (jadi so' taugh gitu ... )




besok mu ana-test lagee.. doakan yaphhh...



yang t'baik ajah...



gagh berani berharap banyak siyh.. cuma pengen yang terbaik aja. that's it...




mu uas..pula.. blum tanggal 7 pengumuman neyhh...duakan juga...

banyak beudh yaahhh..

dah ah... cuape ngetikna...


next time agy iaghh..


[[cayank_dya_sangadh]] xp

my memories

huhu.. senangnya.. tadi aquwh abis dari kali kuning.. hoho...
jalan2 aja siyhh...yang bikin seneng.. perginya bareng sapa... hehee...
hmm.. cuma futu2 aja siyh. tapi senengggggg bangeettt!! sampe gagh kerasa acpeknya.. hehhe..


i thoughttt... diz would be one of my sweetest memory.. selama di jogja.. hehehehe...
tambah seru kali ya kalo sama dnyets ke atasnya.. jadi kangen mereka dan puncak.. hmm...