for her my rival's shaddow...

actually it's none of my business..i just dont know what probably really happened between u both in d past. i should be dont really care bout this. i see this is a past. it's just doesn't matter . but then i thought (the same thought as i was before...) i should know what really happened. why are 'them' shut up? why them not just tell me? i won't cry loud. maybe just some tears. but that's all. i need an honesty even i scared of the hurt feeling's after.
only God who know the truth of what happened between u and gie.i just think that might be something or maybe lots of things that i don't know.
i don't know who would tell me. gie's just to sensitive to talk about you. i don't want we fight again because of this. i don't want he remember or repeating the same things again. but i don't know how to do that? just leave at all... ?? it won't work..
for u to know. it's not about me who said that "don't love her" it wasn't, it's already established "don't say that about her".
i'm not scared of loosinghim. i won't. but i'm scared that i'm going tired an give up. i'm scared to hurt him on my way. but mostly,i'm scared that i loose this fight. the fight ini gie's mind between me and ur shaddow.